Ever had one of those days/months

I haven't had many bad days recently. Things are going really well with Tyler. Minus the bus lady incident ( which she ended up NOT getting transferred but had a lesson on how not to abuse my child) So things are going well. Emotionally and spiritually not so hot.

Let me explain:

I have a testimony of Jesus Christ and understand He has a plan. I understand His hand is watching over us and that again there is a plan.

Yet I fall short on SO many levels. One lately has been on forgiveness and total forgiveness. Instead it has been filled with anger and resentment. So much so that I can pretty much find fault in every single thing that people have said. Seriously, I am getting REALLY good. Even if it is something simple ( " I had a long day" for example could have me wanting to tell them off or getting angry etc ) Its bad.

I find myself constantly doing this. Its not even just one person. That is what makes me more frustrated than anything. If they have severely offended me or have attacked me in some way I find myself doing this. I find myself getting defensive so much that I feel like I am making myself have more anxiety than it is worth.

I have found myself really looking and looking for some guidance. I have been taking some time before Ty gets on the bus and reading last sessions Ensign. I have been praying for help and yet I still fall short.

I really feel like these people have and owe me an apology. I have apologized and have done so more than once to several of those I feel have wronged me. But it just isn't going away.

I know that I can and have changed I just wish I could understand that with others. It is not a fun feeling to feel defensive and angry.

Anyone else ever been there? Am I just bearing my soul for no reason!? I want to be able to forgive and forget. What has worked for you?

Utah..... Home?

Just over 2 years ago we decided to strike out on our own and Dallas took a job with Paypal and we packed ( ok I had movers and packers) and moved. We had a sick baby. And I say baby with all the honesty I can. Looking back he was SOOO tiny. Don't believe me he was TINY! We thought he was a big boy then! But we moved right after his second skull reconstruction. We were determined to do it on our own.

And we did.

In 2.5 years we have done so many things that we set out to accomplish by just moving to a new state. We set a goal and as a couple we reached it together. As a Family we rode the ride. We have met and made some wonderful friends while here. But we are ready to move on and start new.

After talking it over and "sleeping on it" (aka praying and looking at options) we decided to go for it. We looked at houses over the weekend and found a cute house to rent and we are so excited to get to Utah and escaped the HEAT! ( Remind us of that when it is snowing)

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This is where we are moving to. We are super excited. It has a unfinished basement and the blue wall is being painted. Otherwise it is exactly what we were looking for. We are excited to move and not excited to pack!

We will be rolling into Utah on September 1st. Anyone who wants to help unload ( D is buying food) we would appreciate it!