As I got thinking about both blogs and want to keep both I wanted to take the advice that I have been given in the last few months and blog with honesty with my readers about everything. The good, the bad, the not so pretty and the amazing. Though I plan to keep the other blog and keep it going I am going to post it on here as well.
Why? Because this is our life. Our life is Tyler. Who is amazing, smart, cute and who just happens to be handed a really bad deal. We blog about his life, his prematurity, the hardships. The downs and the ups. We blog about the hard times we have has parents, the sadness that sometimes creeps in. But I felt I was not being open and honest with the other part because of the nonsupporting nature of those around us. ( Mind you... a FEW, SELECT few.) So in open honesty I have decided to add the secondary infertility that is thought consuming, hard and sad.
If you want to read a more detailed account our Blog starts at the beginning if you will. But the last entry was Friday. We were waiting on our beta pregnancy test ( blood test) and it came back negative.
It has been one of the hardest days in a VERY long time. Soon I will have the courage to share all of my feelings but for now, that is about it. In order to combat my sadness I have been on a lovely keep busy kick. My house looks great ( till this morning) and soon I will have the time to write it all down.
Till then... Infertility will be part of this blog. It is a part of our life. It is part of who we are. It is part of why we do things.