Sunday, July 11, 2010

The whole truth

I have never not talked about our secondary infertility on this blog. I just didn't detail everything like I did over on my other blog. I know that some read this that aren't supportive in any detail and sometimes it is just more of a means for them to "spy."

As I got thinking about both blogs and want to keep both I wanted to take the advice that I have been given in the last few months and blog with honesty with my readers about everything. The good, the bad, the not so pretty and the amazing. Though I plan to keep the other blog and keep it going I am going to post it on here as well.

Why? Because this is our life. Our life is Tyler. Who is amazing, smart, cute and who just happens to be handed a really bad deal. We blog about his life, his prematurity, the hardships. The downs and the ups. We blog about the hard times we have has parents, the sadness that sometimes creeps in. But I felt I was not being open and honest with the other part because of the nonsupporting nature of those around us. ( Mind you... a FEW, SELECT few.) So in open honesty I have decided to add the secondary infertility that is thought consuming, hard and sad.

If you want to read a more detailed account our Blog starts at the beginning if you will. But the last entry was Friday. We were waiting on our beta pregnancy test ( blood test) and it came back negative.

It has been one of the hardest days in a VERY long time. Soon I will have the courage to share all of my feelings but for now, that is about it. In order to combat my sadness I have been on a lovely keep busy kick. My house looks great ( till this morning) and soon I will have the time to write it all down.

Till then... Infertility will be part of this blog. It is a part of our life. It is part of who we are. It is part of why we do things.


Lisa M. said...

Sounds fair and square to me.

I hate happy blogs. Painting picture perfect lives, that I do not believe in a nano second even exist.

Non supportive people can go to hell, it isn't any of their business anyway. I hate people like that. Dismiss them the best you can, and look past them.

Looking for Blue Sky said...

So sorry that you are having to cope with this issue as well, but glad that you are sharing it with us xx

Stacy said...

Oh that sucks. I'm so sorry. I know all too well both the struggles of secondary infertility and the negative pregnancy tests. Thinking of you.

Amber said...

I'm SO SORRY for you all!!! I completly understand how much you both want Emmalee and how much it hurts not to have her with you. You are all still in my prayers and I hope you will hold her in your arms very soon. SLY and I can't wait to see you in a few weeks!!!!