With the bus incident this week I have had a HARD week.
Not only was MY emotions out of whack but he wasn't feeling well. He had Rotovirus since last week and just hasn't felt well. Thankfully that resolved before sending him back to school on Wednesday.
My emotions, however, were not getting better. But a realization of so many things. A self reflective kind of emotion.
The night after Ty was forgotten on the bus I was awoken with the very distinct memory/dream or thought to say a prayer. I don't know why and I don't know what I was suppose to say a prayer about but given my experience in the past, strange ideas come to you in the night and you better act!
Ty got up soon after that and it was early. We went downstairs and started a movie and got breakfast for him. I laid on the couch and the thought came again. So I acted again.
I was laying on the couch ( I am not kidding.. it was EARLY) and my thought was "Maybe you know how it feels to not hear from your child. Yours was 40 minutes. When was the last time you talked to me."
And the "idea" was shocking.
I pray. But how long as it been since I have really prayed? How long has it been since I realized just how important Tyler is and how many blessing he brings to us. That with the trials he is the ONE thing that is the most important for Dallas and I.
The panic of NOT having Tyler here was more than I can bear. He is the sun and the moon. He is the world to both of us! Never again do I want to feel like my world just got turned upside down. In doing so, I need to remember where I came from and be thankful. And share that thanks.
Give Thanks. Hug the ones I love.
And Tell them often.
I love you.