Friday, March 26, 2010

In the Middle of the Night

With the bus incident this week I have had a HARD week.
Hard.

Not only was MY emotions out of whack but he wasn't feeling well. He had Rotovirus since last week and just hasn't felt well. Thankfully that resolved before sending him back to school on Wednesday.

My emotions, however, were not getting better. But a realization of so many things. A self reflective kind of emotion.

The night after Ty was forgotten on the bus I was awoken with the very distinct memory/dream or thought to say a prayer. I don't know why and I don't know what I was suppose to say a prayer about but given my experience in the past, strange ideas come to you in the night and you better act!

Ty got up soon after that and it was early. We went downstairs and started a movie and got breakfast for him. I laid on the couch and the thought came again. So I acted again.

I was laying on the couch ( I am not kidding.. it was EARLY) and my thought was "Maybe you know how it feels to not hear from your child. Yours was 40 minutes. When was the last time you talked to me."

And the "idea" was shocking.

I pray. But how long as it been since I have really prayed? How long has it been since I realized just how important Tyler is and how many blessing he brings to us. That with the trials he is the ONE thing that is the most important for Dallas and I.

The panic of NOT having Tyler here was more than I can bear. He is the sun and the moon. He is the world to both of us! Never again do I want to feel like my world just got turned upside down. In doing so, I need to remember where I came from and be thankful. And share that thanks.

Give Thanks. Hug the ones I love.

And Tell them often.

I love you.

2 comments:

Matt and Brianna said...

Wow! Beautifully said!! It's so true ya know? We get so wrapped up in the day to day trials our kiddos "needs" bring and we often forget the really important things! I needed this eye opening experience for myself! Thanks for sharing it with me! And thanks for talking with me last night!!

Amber said...

WOW! That is AMAZING!!!! I never thought about correlating Tyler not talking to us not REALLY praying. With you making yourself sick with worry for only 40 minutes, I can't imagine how worried we make Heavenly Father when we don't really pray to Him for days, weeks, months, years and decades. I will do better at my prayers because I don't want to cause that much worry to Heavenly Father. SLY!!!!!