I was reading Mel's blog and I LOVED the picture and I loved the most recent post. I loved it because I am not alone.
The word communication is so big. There is a lot of ways to communicate. For the most part, I am usually really good at communicating with him. I can usually figure out what he wants, how he wants and how to make him happy. But today was NOT one of those days.
While I know that Tyler seems so "typical" to the outside world there is nothing "typical" about watching him become increasingly frustrated as I can't "guess" what he wants. I get that most of you are saying well "most kids you have to guess?" Really, since when does you average 3 year old make grunting noises and point? Since when did your average 3 year old have a vocabulary of 3 words? Since when did your "typical" 3 year old get so frustrated that he bangs his head on the floor, wall or any other surface ( thank goodness sometimes it is pillows) because no one can guess what he wants?
Temper tantrums go with the territory. Three year old's get upset. But today was just more and more and increasingly frustrated. When you compound on top of it the frustration I feel when he won't say dad and just wants to be picked up and held. Or if I walk away he totally freaks out and no one but mom can or will suffice, my frustration compounds.
I love my son. I care about him. I want to meet his needs. If I love him how can I be so frustrated?
Some days I am at the end of my rope... Some days I am very done. Some days I can't do it any more. Some days I wonder how much more I can do.
Some day he will talk.
As a wise person once said, I guess I will be changing my prayers..