Surgical consult

I had my surgical consult. It went well and we had a lot of questions answered. We had a lot of concerns eased and I think we might just survive. Here is what what know.

The cyst on my ovary is not really a cyst but an endometrial mass. Meaning that it isn't going to just burst open and feel better. Without some sort of treatment it will continue to grow. As my body goes through its cycle it will add more of the endometrial cells to it and make me even sicker than I am.

The treatment that we will be doing is depolupron. It is a NASTY NASTY thing that I have done once before and it made me gain weight have have major... MAJOR hot flashes. It gives me much empathy for my mother and all menopausal women out there. It gives you mood swings ( MUCH apologies to my sweet hubby in advance.) and then the good part is to hopefully alow for the cyst to shrink. We opted for a shot a month for six months that way if I just can't handle the nasty side effects or it is not working then we can stop and proceed to option number 2.

I got the shot today.. in the bum. It didn't sting which for that I am greatful.

The surgical options that we have are quite good. We were hoping to get through the holiday season( thanks to my wonderful job) and then go from there. It looks like we will make it through the season and then some if I can handle the shots ( and Dallas can handle my moody behind.) From there they will try to laproscopically take it out. I have majore MAJOR anxiety opening up that incision in my stomach. So much that I was in total cope mode trying to make it to the appointment today ( aka sleeping as much as possble, xanax the night before and LOTS of prayers.) She said unless the cyst is to large then they would do it through my abdominal wound. Laproscopically would be ideal because I know how that one goes and how I will feel. Recovery is just a few days.

If we can do the lupron for 6 months, then wait a few months to see if the cyst ( I kinda feel like I should name it really) goes away, then do the surgery and then we can "think" of the next step in our lives. Ideally. I would like to wake up one day and have no pain in my ovary. No pain to the point of wanting to stay in bed and curl up in a little ball. One day that the pain in my stomach doesn't make my leg numb. One day....

Several other things discussed were how this surgery would effect my "odds" of another preterm delivery, what the odds are of the next one ending in a preemie. What things I can do to better my health to have an carry a child. And what we can do to increase our chance to have a baby.

Endometriosis causes infertility. They believe one of the reasons I was able to get pregnant with Ty was becasue of the surgery I had had six months prior to having him.

Who knows what the surgery will entail for the future... ( so much for a "made up condtion huh" )